Life...and other afflictions

The rantings and uninteresting events of my life

Monday, July 12, 2004

Bleargh..everytime I start to study, I end up sleeping. Not that I really want to, but it just happens. Probably too boring..and once you are horizontal, you just can't get up anymore. You fall asleep instead. I need a good chair that doesn't make my back hurt when I sit there too long...cos if not, I'll sit on my bed...and if I sit on my bed, we all know I'll just sleep.

Well, basically one exam left. Plus quite a fair bit of homework really. Ugh. Can't wait till Friday. Though I may have to burn the ol' midnight oil to get the homework done. But what the heck...I'll do in on Thursday night, after the exam. I think I should just focus on the exam first. The main problem is that I can't decide what to do first...like which one is more important and which one I should give priority to. It thus ends up being totally unproductive.

I got back one exam...got a 1.3...but overall grade was 1.0. I think she was quite generous. I take back all the bad things I've felt and said about her. We'll be getting other papers back from tomorrow...ugh. I don't know how they will be...I don't want anything worse than a 2.0 for any English thing. I mean not that I am smart or ambitious, but hello, if I can't get 1s and Germans do, then I'll have to rethink my entire life spent speaking English. It's not about snobbishness or arrogance. It's about reality...being realistic, knowing which level I have to achieve based on the circumstances. It's actually even more pressurizing than being in Singapore, cos there I have no advantage and thus will not be expected to do well. I can get any grade I like, because technically, everyone's equal. I'm trying to tell this friend of mine to not compare her grades with mine...it's like me trying to compare my German with hers...like totally unrealistic and irrational..but oh well, people like being that way: IRRATIONAL..it's an inherent human trait.

Oh well...gotta get back to my revision...after I check a few things online.

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