I think I'm in a pretty foul mood at the moment. I don't even know if I wanna tell anyone. But I sure feel betrayed. I was just getting accustomed to a certain way of thinking, a certain level of self-assurance...now it's all gone down the drain though. Down the stinky, shit-filled drain. What a cruel joke. Well, maybe friends must be cruel to be kind...but sometimes I rather wish they'd be unkind. My ego can't take anymore "kind" bruising.