At this time tomorrow, I'll be in a plane on the way to Frankfurt. I am just waiting for time to go by. I'm nearly impatient.
It's seems like it's been forever since I was last home. Maybe because so many things happened this semester that it seems a lot of time has passed since then. I sense a difference in my mood the last time and this time. The last time, I was happy (because I had a new boyfriend) and excited (summery weather after the dreaded winter!)...now I'm sad (no more boyfriend) and yet somewhat hopeful (maybe being home will kill some of my misery and pain). Somehow, I feel like I've aged a lot. It's nothing to do with being 21. Pain forces you to grow up somehow...whether you want it or not. I have semi-permanent dark rings around my eyes...and no matter how I try to fake being happy, the dark rings give me this battle-worn look.
I tried putting stuff in my suitcase last night. It doesn't look good...the suitcase is 3/4 full already and I haven't even put everything in...there's still my laptop cables, hp charger, chocolates, presents, my dictionary etc etc. I am beginning to think that I've really got too many clothes. Like way more than too many. But I love clothes. What can I do? I hope that when I come back to Dresden, I can carry my luggage. No strong men to help me carry anything this time. But at least Steffi's dad's gonna drive me to the airport. I'll worry about coming back to Dresden in September.
I bought even more stuff yesterday, when I was out with Liu Jian. We went to dump her old clothes first...I got my finger crushed...but no broken bones...just a disgusting dark red/nearly black blob that kinda looks like a mole. It hurts less today, after I put Zam-Buk on it last night...but yesterday, the slightest touch made me grimace. Now it's bearable, though still painful. Anyway, I bought a black & white striped top for the office, another sweater/shirt combi for the office and a purple dress...it's so cute! A bit transparent...but since it's a dark colour...maybe no one will notice. I also bought a top for my aunt..it's her birthday today. I tried it on, just to see which size is better...and I kinda fell in love with it. But I didn't buy myself one. But if happens to be too big for her, I don't mind wearing it...haha :) No, I still hope she can wear it of course! We each had a McDonalds Hamburger in Altmarkt Galerie. She treated me. Hadn't had a Mac's burger in eons...but it was freshly heated and really yummy, despite it being so simple. Liu Jian got hairdye and then we went to Prohlis, where I collected my photos and bought a photo album. We also went to the supermarket...she got stuff to make sushi and I got butter and some chocolates...we're gonna have another little party today...sushi, spring rolls and cake. Which reminds me...I'll have to ask Liu Jian what ingredients she can offer me for the cake. She wanted to use up her stocks. She'll be going to the US next month and her husband is gonna move out too. Everyone I know is leaving. Ugh.
After I got back, I just hung around online for a while...then watched TV and tried to pack. And I realised that this time, I haven't really been organized about my packing. Sigh. But I am hoping that I somehow won't forget anything. I'd feel stupid then...but I will have today and tomorrow morning to pack.
Ok, gonna watch TV now...3 nice shows in a row :)
It's seems like it's been forever since I was last home. Maybe because so many things happened this semester that it seems a lot of time has passed since then. I sense a difference in my mood the last time and this time. The last time, I was happy (because I had a new boyfriend) and excited (summery weather after the dreaded winter!)...now I'm sad (no more boyfriend) and yet somewhat hopeful (maybe being home will kill some of my misery and pain). Somehow, I feel like I've aged a lot. It's nothing to do with being 21. Pain forces you to grow up somehow...whether you want it or not. I have semi-permanent dark rings around my eyes...and no matter how I try to fake being happy, the dark rings give me this battle-worn look.
I tried putting stuff in my suitcase last night. It doesn't look good...the suitcase is 3/4 full already and I haven't even put everything in...there's still my laptop cables, hp charger, chocolates, presents, my dictionary etc etc. I am beginning to think that I've really got too many clothes. Like way more than too many. But I love clothes. What can I do? I hope that when I come back to Dresden, I can carry my luggage. No strong men to help me carry anything this time. But at least Steffi's dad's gonna drive me to the airport. I'll worry about coming back to Dresden in September.
I bought even more stuff yesterday, when I was out with Liu Jian. We went to dump her old clothes first...I got my finger crushed...but no broken bones...just a disgusting dark red/nearly black blob that kinda looks like a mole. It hurts less today, after I put Zam-Buk on it last night...but yesterday, the slightest touch made me grimace. Now it's bearable, though still painful. Anyway, I bought a black & white striped top for the office, another sweater/shirt combi for the office and a purple dress...it's so cute! A bit transparent...but since it's a dark colour...maybe no one will notice. I also bought a top for my aunt..it's her birthday today. I tried it on, just to see which size is better...and I kinda fell in love with it. But I didn't buy myself one. But if happens to be too big for her, I don't mind wearing it...haha :) No, I still hope she can wear it of course! We each had a McDonalds Hamburger in Altmarkt Galerie. She treated me. Hadn't had a Mac's burger in eons...but it was freshly heated and really yummy, despite it being so simple. Liu Jian got hairdye and then we went to Prohlis, where I collected my photos and bought a photo album. We also went to the supermarket...she got stuff to make sushi and I got butter and some chocolates...we're gonna have another little party today...sushi, spring rolls and cake. Which reminds me...I'll have to ask Liu Jian what ingredients she can offer me for the cake. She wanted to use up her stocks. She'll be going to the US next month and her husband is gonna move out too. Everyone I know is leaving. Ugh.
After I got back, I just hung around online for a while...then watched TV and tried to pack. And I realised that this time, I haven't really been organized about my packing. Sigh. But I am hoping that I somehow won't forget anything. I'd feel stupid then...but I will have today and tomorrow morning to pack.
Ok, gonna watch TV now...3 nice shows in a row :)
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