Have a verbal vomit urge. That despite having written 13 pages in 2 days...I have a 10,000 word paper on my hands. Waiting for my mum to read it so that I can email and post it to my prof tomorrow. It is not at all an intellectual piece. I have no idea how I managed to ramble for 10,000 words/25 pages. 2 days after the deadline. Hope he accepts it. I think I am headed for a 3.0 or something. It totally lacks substance.

But, it's almost done..just the corrections and the content page...then I can work in peace.

My long-awaited off-day will be spent at work. There is nothing sadder than going back to work when EVERYONE else is not working and not being paid for it. I mean I am ok with sacrificing some of my free time. That's what I do on Saturdays...but that's precisely the reason why I wanted this break so much! A weekday where nearly everyone else is working...a chance to go out when not everything is so crowded. A day I was going to spend swimming, shopping and chatting with Marcus. Now I have to go back at 1pm tomorrow. I thought someone was playing a trick on me.

This teacher called today just before lunch and announced that she was coming for the exhibtion tomorrow. Yes, announced...not ASKED. When I said the Institut was closed tomorrow, she said when she was there last week, there weren't any signs and the postcards said "4 September - 13 October"...well, honestly, even if we were open, I might've been having another tour...then I have no idea what she would do. Anyway, when I told her we were closed, she said but she already booked the bus...so I said I'd get the key and open it for her tomorrow. But hello, I wouldn't be stupid enough to book a bus before I knew if the person was free or not. My blood is boiling..seriously. But I am going back tomorrow...because I am nice...because this is only temporary and because the exhibition is only on until 12th October. I work 6 days a week...more than anyone else there...and I am not paid...I have to spend money getting into town. I mean I don't blame the company..but I mean other people...hello...have the courtesy to check with me in advance!! Ah well..I suppose I wanted to go to Bugis, so I'd have to go in the direction of town anyway..but hmm..I mean I wanted the freedom of having a choice to stay at home and slack the whole day too. I also need to top up my EZ-link card as well...bleargh...all these errands to run..and now work.

I wanna scream man! But well, at least the paper's more or less complete..one less worry.

Tons more to write about, but I suppose I'll go work on the contents page now...

Talking to myself...seems I'm doing a lot of it these days. I don't know if I'm made to socialise with other human beings. I feel like some awkward little idiot with nothing intelligent to say...see, when you talk to yourself, no one's gonna complain about how un-intellectual your conversation is.

I suppose that's playing it safe. The same way my toys always smile at me now matter how silly I've been..and I don't have to be intelligent 'cos honestly, they don't care. But it also means I don't learn how to be smart and well, it's kinda running away from reality. But I suppose I have other things to worry about first...

..like my Hausarbeit..which was supposed to be handed in yesterday. But, I didn't write much on Sat and Sunday, so I wrote nearly 8 pages today...my usual speed was 2-3 pages a day...now I'm so close to completing it, but I just can't..my brain is dying...I can't concentrate anymore. I've been working on that paper since 9.30am this morning. It's 10pm now...only took breaks for lunch and the bus ride home. And I'm so stressed I'm getting a sore throat and I have a toothache. Please just let me finish it tomorrow so I can post it on Wednesday morning...it takes forever to get to Germany as it is. But I must hand it in..it's my last Hausarbeit for Anglistik before I write my Magisterarbeit...I will have to write another one for DaF, but I guess that's ok...I just hate academic writing with all its quoting of sources and trying to form arguments.

Once I finish this, I can work in peace...yeah, not even have a holiday in peace...WORK in peace. But at least once I get home, I can relax. Maybe I'll even have time to go swimming. I still haven't gone a single time since I came back. In any case, I'd stop feeling guilty for writing my paper during office hours...but I never had another chance. Honestly, I've never worked harder to finish my papers, because usually I'd be in Germany and have no other distractions, like work and other stuff.

In any case, I hope my immune system survives this...I really have to be fit for the 12 tours next week. At least Wed is an offday...I would like to go shopping...for fun... :)