Life...and other afflictions

The rantings and uninteresting events of my life

Wednesday, April 20, 2005





Your Seduction Style: The Natural





You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.






Your True Birth Month Is October









Selfish

Decisive

Romantic

Emotional

Concerned

Daydreamer

Sympathetic

Just and fair

Loves to chat

Bad tempered

Loves outdoors

Very opinionated

Strong clairvoyance

Attractive and suave

Easily lose confidence

Always making friends

Does not lie or pretend

Touchy and easily jealous

Inner and physical beauty

Treats friends importantly

Seldom helps unless asked

Easily hurt but recovers easily

Soft-spoken, loving and caring

Loves those who love in return

Spendthrift and easily influenced

Does not care of what others think

Loves to travel, the arts and literature



Tuesday, April 19, 2005

I am so screwed. A message to everyone out there: your past really likes to come back and give you a big fat slap in the face. You can't run away from it. Unless you happen to be an excellent liar and you have no conscience. Neither of which applies to me. I'm so bad at lying that it's better to tell the truth. But the truth often hurts...which is why you try to conceal it in the first place.

So, here are a few golden rules (not all of them apply to me, but hey, there's still something to be learnt)
1) Don't let it appear that you dumped your boyfriend for a new guy. The new guy will often then feel insecure about your relationship and sometimes a bit guilty too.
2) DO NOT cheat on your boyfriend, even if it is a one night stand. It will come back to haunt you. Especially if the one night stand happens to be your new boyfriend's coursemate (even if you hadn't known it at that time)
3) Never tell anyone you "tried something out of curiosity"...they'll wonder if you're with them "out of curiousity" too.
4) If you can, learn how to be a good liar so that you can conceal all the dirty deeds that you've done.
5) No matter how hard you try to convince people otherwise, they often only see the one or two things that you've done wrong...and not the thousand things that you've done right.

Yeah. Well...hope you all learn something from this. Right now, I'll just have to deal with the fact that I screwed up big time...and hope I don't get dumped. Though if he hates me, I can fully comprehend why. Sigh.

Monday, April 18, 2005

Probably a lot of people go through a depressive phase every now and then. I don't mean depression...just a phase. And I guess that's what's happening to me now.

I haven't been able to do anything productive since Tuesday. I've just been sitting in my room having horrible thoughts. Not suicidal...but just like ugh...what can I do about my life.

School's giving me a major headache. I don't understand what's going on in class despite having been here for 4 semesters. I can't participate, because I don't understand. I hate doing my homework because I don't understand and I feel like a procrastinating idiot. And I think some of the lecturers (for the seminars) don't like me. They deliberately ignore me.

Well, as for the rest..I really don't have many friends here. I mean no one I can really talk to about things..although we can celebrate, do stuff together and I can complain sorta superficially.

We went to view an apartment on Friday...but we're probably not gonna take it...although the place is in an excellent location, with 3 supermarkets super nearby. I guess mainly cos the other 2 girls (Mai und Phuong) would have to pay considerably more, while Fu Wei and I would be paying nearly the same for smaller bedrooms. But, the living room is great! And there's a balcony with a nice view. Sigh. I'd love to live there, but I'd like to have my neighbours around too. Maybe we'll just stay here lah. Although the hostel is old and everything breaks down often. So sad.

After that, I still didn't feel like doing work, so I went with Fu Wei to play badminton. I really suck at it man. But definitely better than my volleyball or basketball skills. I was thinking of joining swimming...so that I can work off some of my stress. I also miss swimming very much. If I can sign up, then I'l go buy a new pair of goggles.

As for relationship problems, well...I don't feel like I am in one most of the time. It's also not funny to keep hearing indirect hints that you are too heavy or straight out comments that you have weird fingers...even if it's true and even if it's only meant as a joke. Ok, maybe I should stop being so hypersensitive. I'd feel better anyway.
Batman
Congratulations! You scored a super 71%!

Cool, calm and powerful. Whilst your actual super abilities may not be
anything too dazzling, you have earnt the respect of both friends and
enemies in response to your amazing fighting skills, strategic combat
and experience.
Luckily you have access to the greens which can fund all your majorly
cool gadgets, vehicles and weapons! Also, you're reluctant but still
accepting to the idea of having a teammate/side-kick, which just makes
everything a whole lotta fun, doesn't it now!
On the down side, you've probably suffered some sort of trauma at a
young age (that's why we don't talk to the old man near the swings,
kids).
Similar to the Wolverine, your past is a base for your current
motivation, undertaking some kind of personal vow in search of justice.
All in all though, you're one tough nut. There's not a lot of people
who have the minerals to go up against you, and you're experienced
enough not to get cocky and let the little things like never finding
happiness get you down!



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