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Oh dear...what a misunderstanding! Nicholas SMS-ed me this morning to ask if I'd mind if Xing Jian came along to the party tmr. I actually thought Ranj already asked him and he couldn't come. See how confusing things can get? Anyway, I am over my row with my friend (maybe not friend) but I am not gonna talk to him. Yes, I am being mean but I can be a self-righteous bitch and this is one of the times. Lalaa..so don't get on my wrong side. Seriously speaking, though I am volatile, I don't stay angry for long, USUALLY. So it has to be something that really really pisses me off.

I am gonna leave that matter to rest and talk about other stuff. When I saw the Avril Lavigne articles in the various newspapers which are delivered to my house, I started thinking. I love her songs, but I think her personality needs a makeover. She is so weird...keeps contradicting herself and all. I love her look too, but she could learn to be more friendly. She is a public figure after all. But then again, pop stars and the like are often warped! Think Christina Aguilera. I love "Dirrty" and I think she has a nice voice but what she wears and all that really freaks me out. She really does look like some hooker. All troubled pple I think but who am I to judge, I'm disturbed too.

I couldn't really sleep last night. I was thinking about the 3-month stint in Germany again. I thought about what it would be like to be somewhere strange and sleep alone in my bed. When I was in childcare, I could never take an afternoon nap like the other kids unless some teacher was like sleeping next to me. Even then, I kept making excuses to wake up, like going to the toilet. Once, there was a new teacher and she stayed till I was asleep before she left, but I woke up and upon not seeing her there, I panicked and cried. I mean REALLY LOUDLY! Well, since then I've grown up...but I had various toys which sorta substituted the existence of a real person. I wonder if I'll be able to sleep in Germany by myself, without like a parental figure type around. Yes, I'm a pretty independent person, but I still need people to take care of me sometimes, like how I always complain to my mummy when I get injured. She calls me the Plaster Queen. She also wonders how I'll survive 3 months without her to help me apply Zam Buk and stuff (though she did get me some). Well, time will tell!

Going out soon. Trying to look for something for Tiff's Dapao to sign in case they are not giving out posters. Hmm...maybe he'll sign the pizza box...

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This is kinda accurate man...well, the part abt immature anyway...=)

I've got this situation to think through...I really don't know what it means to me, whether I should learn anything from this incident. Let me start from the beginning. My friend calls me up to set a day to go out. We settle on Thursday(today) and tentatively, arrange to meet at 9am at JP, cos he has tuition in the afternoon. So anyway, I make arrangements to meet my sister after school at around 2pm so I can get some stuff from KAP. Meanwhile, he decides to change the meeting time to 10am, then later, change the venue to Orchard instead. When he finds out that I am meeting my sister, he complains that he will have to spend 1 hour alone. In his words, "I assumed we would both be free till our later appointments and we'd like leave together." Well, odd as it may seem, I was pissed that he was so presumptious, that I would have nothing else to do that day. I mean as much as I am slacking, I still have plans. I was also indignant that he kept changing plans. I may be a flexible person, to the extent that I am quite happy to just spend my time wandering from one place to the next without any real plan, BUT, when people make plans, I expect them not to be constantly changed. For me, plans set expectations. Well anyway, to be fair my friend did try to clear up the misunderstanding and irritation, but this morning, he decided to change the time to 10.30am... but he sms-ed me just before I actually left the house. Then when I suggested changing the venue cos there was a show that only showed at Plaza sing that I wanted to watch, he didn't reply. Well, I got pissed (well, yeah, as USUAL) cos like what am I supposed to do then? In addition, I felt a cold coming on (this is not a lie) so I decided to cancel. He called me then and asked if I was just like pretending to be sick (cos I sounded okay yesterday) and was just using that as an excuse not to go out. I don't know...I was quite happy to go out originally but all these complications really threw me off. Anyway, both of us were tired (that's why he changed the time to meet and I was talking to Han till abt 2 am this morning) so I told him to go and sleep...he said "You also wanna go back to sleep right?" and said he didn't understand why I try to make everything seem like his fault. Is that true? Do I really do that to people? I must say that I may not be a very objective person, but do I truly make everything that goes wrong seem like someone else's fault... like to rationalise it away or something? Let me share some psychology that I learnt from hospital with you (this is of course subject to my own interpretation): there are often 2 kinds of reactions to bad events that happen to us. The first kind of reaction is to blame yourself. eg. If your teacher scolds you for doing something you don't remember doing, you assume that it's because you're a lousy person and can't do anything right. The second kind of reaction is to blame everyone else but yourself. eg, a criminal tells the judge that he committed whatever crime cos his friends told him to, or he grew up in a broken family, or whatever, as long as he's not the guilty one. The first kind of person is often depressed or melancholic. The second person is angry and bitter. Think about it...how do you usually react? I'm gonna watch Wan Quan Yu Le!

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Phew...what a crazy day! It started out pretty okay at first...had a bowl of Raisin Bran for breakfast, sat by the poolside to read DOLLY, had lunch and met Audrey to watch White Oleander at Westmall.

When we got to Westmall though, there was some partial blackout, so we basically had to climb escalators...yes, ESCALATORS, not stair...plus, only 1 lift was working. We walked around looking at the shops for presents for Ranj and Ruth...I really enjoyed helping Audz to choose their presents...I managed to resist buying stuff for myself...but in the end I caved in and bought a purple skirt.

It was kinda cool, cos Audz and I had the whole theatre to ourselves, so we could talk as loudly as we wanted and sit anywhere we felt like! It was SO fun...I love making stupid comments during movies...erm, yes, very bad habit. Well, I'm feeling pretty ambivalent about the movie. The whole thing was kinda disturbing, the way a mother can have so much power and influence over her child...freaky! well, I absolutely loved Noah Wyle (liked him since 1995) but after Renee Zellweger's character died, the story kinda went downhill from there and ended up like champagne left out too long: FLAT! Well, the only bright spark was that Alison Lohmann ended up looking like Avril Lavigne somehow, with tattoos and all. *sigh* I still want a tattoo but well, think my parents will flip...it was hard enough trying to get my mummy to accept that I have 3 piercings in each ear (though it's quite normal nowadays). Definitely cannot tell her about my navel piercing. She'd go ballistic! So anyway, she looked kinda goth in such makeup...thought it was cool, but it is obviously not the look for me...*sigh*

Went home to watch the Mission. No, no one I know appeared on TV... Got my plane ticket, at last! Was really pissed off by my friend though. He assumed my schedule fitted his and got pissed cos I have to leave earlier and he has to spend 1 hour by himself. I hate pple who expect me to have no other plans or drop all my other plans to suit their schedule! We've sorta cleared up the misunderstanding but seriously, even if I seem like I am slacking around, I do have plans...never ask me out last minute...even if I am free, I may not agree to go cos I feel that asking pple out last minute is not respectful of the person. So yeah, please respect yr friends. Don't assume they are always free, just dying to go out with you...if you wanna be appreciated, please appreciate yr friends first.

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Haha....3rd entry of today...I am so excited that I finally got my flight itinerary (yes, my 12-year old sister had to teach me how to spell it)!! yay, so now I know what flight I'm on etc. I also know that the flight to Amsterdam is like 13h 20 min long...I am so gonna die sitting still for so long! Crossword puzzles anyone? The last time I went to Germany in 2001, I actually spent a good part of the plane ride doing my econs workbook okay! Then there's still the 1h 35min flight from Amsterdam to Nürnberg! I should count myself lucky though...some people never even get to ride in airplanes their whole life. I love planes though. Pity I'm neither slim nor pretty enough to be an air stewardess. Haha...can't be a pilot either cos I'm too short and don't have perfect eyesight (childhood dream). So I'll just have to be content with being a passenger. Hope I can get a job which requires me to travel next time.

Just watched like 3 straight hours of tv...hardly had that kinda luxury before. Better enjoy it while it lasts!

Sheesh...how on earth can you view Chinese characters on your web browser? Don't tell me to try the encoding thing, I already did! UGH. Anyway, million thanks to Kheng Hui who fixed the problem that I couldn't: adding links to the page.

Chatting to a former junior from MG...she apparently knows me cos of this other sec1 girl in 2000 who thought I was cool/nice, whatever...seems like so long ago man...am I forgetful or something? Time really flies (What a cliche!)

Watched Wan Quan Yu Le...as usual and upon close inspection, discovered why Audrey likes Meng Zhe so much. He looks like a baby...oops, I meant his complexion's like a baby's. She was upset that we don't get to watch the Saturday episode of Wan Quan Yu Le cos apparently Meng Zhe hosts it. Aww...so sad.

I must be crazy to make a second entry today cos I haven't been up to anything interesting at all...ironically I suppose, when you are busy and have got lotsa things to do, you have no time to write. Case in point? Tiffany who's at work, did not update her blog. *sob* fewer interesting things to do for me... everyone I know is at school or work or NS, so like I am alone!

Well, I probably should go do something productive with my life but I think I'm just gonna watch tv now. Haha!

Yay!! It's a new day today! Erm...okay, I must be nuts, but ain't it wonderful to be alive? Let my quote my purple t-shirt: "Life is WONDERFUL...without it you'd be dead" Words of wisdom eh? So no matter how down you may feel, remember that while you're still alive, your luck may change for the better.

I wonder how come pple can always type such long entries without having their silly computers screw up... or am I the one screwing up? In any case, I will stick to shorter entries or like Part (a) part (b) type entries... in case.

I am officially BROKE! Sigh...I have a total of $50 to buy my dad's film and survive the rest of the week. I'm going out every day and it's only Tuesday!! Arrggh!!! Help Help! I actually wanna stay at home but the temptation to leave the house is too great. Besides, I definitely spend my weekends at home. I should be starting to pack my luggage for Germany but I have no idea why I haven't begun yet. I do realise that 3 months is a long time and I should like pack properly if not it's not good for me. This is the first time I haven't like packed 2 weeks in advance for a trip actually. (yes, I am a kiasu Singaporean) I will start next week or the end of this week lah...

Oh yeah, I just realised that I have to fork out $26.90 for the limited edition 5566 album like this week or next. No, I am not a 5566 fan(atic)...I just like their songs and no, I don't have a favourite one..I was laughing like crazy when I saw their video clip of the autograph session and there were actually some girls crying... man it's like crazy to be so moved by their presence. I mean they're quite cool but crying??!! A tad overdone I think.

Haha...I must relate the incident that Audrey and I encountered at the shop "House of Starz". It was a small shop plastered wall-to-wall in singer-idols' photos...F4, 5566, SHE...whatever else. It's kinda cool but well, also a little kooky in my opinion. There was the whole bunch of girls crowded around the counter, bent over some photo albums. You'd think it was some kinda family gathering. Anyway, being me, I thought aloud (very loudly): "Like where's the end of the queue?" and this girl told me there was no queue...just like go up to the counter...so Audz and I kinda squeezed to the front and after being mesmerised by the idea that they have like EVERYTHING to do with these pop icons (Handphone covers, soft drink cans, fans, bags etc etc) I finally asked the lady if we could order the limited edition 5566 album there. Haha...this was definitely a new experience for me. To mingle with groupies...

Ugh, got an awful stomachache. Will spare you the details but think I cannot go out anymore today...*ouch*
Also very sleepy...zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Sigh (it's a happy sigh)...just went shopping (yes, AGAIN). Was quite a fun day today. Went out with my friend, Nas, and we watched Analyse That. I thought the movie was really funny...I mean really. I was laughing super loudly. Robert DeNiro is cool! (Though I think Meet The Parents was crass) I hope I do not watch anymore movies twice!! I've watched Die Another Day, Infernal Affairs and Hero twice each already!! I really liked Infernal Affairs, so it was okay...but it's quite a waste of money to watch everything twice. Haha...anyway, after the movie, I was waiting for Nas outside the toilet when this old guy suddenly said Hi to me. I didn't even know he was talking to me at first! But he said he was a ship captain from India and he asked if I was frm Singapore and if I was a student. He said something about wanting to meet students like me. (HUH????!!!) And sorta proposed a shopping trip and lunch. Thank God Nas came out then...haha...I was saved!! Hmm, I figure he tried to talk to me cos I'm not pretty and therefore likely to be flattered by his attention and thus go out with him. Makes sense yeah? Haha...well, sorry, desperate as I am, I'm still not THAT stupid. Went shopping after that. Nas bought me a gorgeous watch for my birthday! He's very nice in that way but he loves annoying me. Ugh. Well, pity cos he spotted lotsa cute girls but I didn't see any cute guys at all!!! Life is so unfair! Reminds me of the walk around Taka with Amos and Audz...take note of cute girls for yr guy friends is some kind of leisure activity...haha! Bought my sister a cute iron-on patch which says "Girl Power"...remember my Flirt pencil case? I have 2 now...haha...well, I love the beautiful purple colour! The first one was a birthday present from my mummy, which reminds me...I'm gonna be 19 soon! *sobsob* I love being 18!!! It's such a beautiful number! I don't wanna get older! Anyway, I still look quite young I think..why do I say so? Well, the cinema guy kept scrutinising me, trying to make sure I was eligible to watch an NC-16 film (do I look THAT young?). Haha, oh well, I guess I count it a blessing...I'm a Peter Pan wannabe you see... =)

Of all the dumb things to do, I watched Hero twice!!! Arrrghh....I don't even like the plot. I kept laughing throughout the movie and Kheng Guan said I was sadistic. *sob* haha, actually, I know I am lah. Anyway, just watched the movie cos most of the other councillors wanted to watch it. Fidel was the ONLY ONE who liked it. Why? Cos he loves Zhang Ziyi! Well, today was the first council outing where there were more guys than girls. Such a rare occasion man! We went to Marché for lunch and got placed in a strategic spot, i.e. next to the toilets. Haha. Well, after we got sick of eating, we went to watch the movie. I can't believe I succumbed to peer pressure. At least I wasn't the only one who was watching it for a second time. Haha! Went to Wisma and Taka after that. Amos kept Audrey and me company and told us not to erm "let those ang moh guys...y'know" cos they're horny (at least that's what I think he said) I also used up the $5 Bits and Pieces voucher Tiff and I got from Chuang Ye Wu Di Shou on a ring and bought some stickers for my sister from Taka, cos she suffered a harrowing experience in the car today. She was stuck in her seatbelt. At first it was super funny cos I couldn't understand how on earth she could get stuck. Well, it was one of those freak accidents and after a while it sure wasn't funny cos the belt got tighter and she had difficulty breathing. In the end, my dad had to cut the belt to free her. I was so freaked out man...I almost died!