Everytime I leave the airport nowadays, I feel like a part of me has been taken away. It's really hard to see your friends leave one by one. I feel awfully empty! And at the same time, I really wanna go off too! But well, I'd miss a lot of stuff here as well, like Chinese shows and music...and of course my friends!

Christine had a right old party sending her off today. I ponned German class...and Audrey, Emily, Rach, Sa'adia, JoBeth, Woon and Jasmine...ooh, and Nunkey too, were at the airport sending her off. It was kinda sad...second day in a row at the airport and losing another friend. In mid-September, there'll be a whole new troop of people leaving...myself included...so I reckon I'll have to start camping out at the airport during that week...or weeks.

These few days/weeks have not been a very happy time for me...besides friends leaving, I have other problems as well...and the fact that my best friend is gone means I can't really confide anyone at the moment...not that I don't trust anyone...just that these are really "secrets" and it's also hard to tell. Some cannot be told cos they're just way too sensitive...so what to do? There are open secrets, secrets you only tell your closest friends and secrets that you have to keep to yourself...

Also have this problem with the German unis...only have 2 months before I have to leave for Germany and only 1 acceptance letter. Not the course I want, so hard to really confirm that I am going there. There's the VISA, the accommodation, the air tickets, and the insurance for starters... none of it can be confirmed...till I get more responses from the unis. UGH!!! 2 months to settle everything when I don't have enough stuff to go on!

Man, Ying Han is really GONE!!! Really GONE! Had to wake up very early this morning. I swear this is the first time I've been up so early this entire year so far, except for the time I was in Germany. My dad woke me up at 6, when I said I was leaving at 7.30am...then my mum came to say it was 6.35 and she'd tell my maid to call me at 6.45..a bit crazy, considering it was supposedly only 10 min more. So after lying around for a while, I got up and washed up. Looked at the clock: 6.35am...humph. Kena cheated man! Left the house at 7am and got to the airport at around 8 am, which is very fast, considering I took 2 different buses. Found out they were gonna merge 185 and 989..no more bus to the airport. I'm so sad! I'm not very fond of the MRT.

Han was complaining in vain...at least 14 of her friends came to send her off, and it was a morning flight!! Silly girl. Anyway, she said she wanted to cry, but she couldn't. Too sad to cry I guess...just like me. UGh...so unbelievable...can't be that she's really gone right? Hope she has a good time in Australia.

Audrey, Ruth, Christine and I hung out at Burger King after Han left...which was very soon. Then on the way back, we decided to hang out at Christine's house, since she was leaving tomorrow. We watched JAG and ate KFC for lunch. We then watched some cartoons and Wan Quan Yu Le..then some documentaries and then we went to Chris' room to yak and she showed us SIMS Hot Date. It was really cute...erm though I must say that I really cannot work the mouse properly. Talking to Chris and helping her consider what to bring along really made me feel sad. Sometimes I'd rather prefer being the one leaving, rather than the one sending her friends off. One by one, everyone's leaving and I feel very lonely. There's still a good 2 months before I actually leave, but in the meantime, other people will be leaving too. Sigh.

Was in the middle of a pretty decent length entry yesterday when Han called. We ended up talking for around 2 hours maybe...and I forgot about the fact that I was still in the midst of using the com. Oops. But it happens I guess...easy to get carried away.

So anyway, this week really flew by. The chocolate presentation on Thursday didn't exactly go according to plan...but I guess you could say that it went pretty okay despite the screw ups. For one, most of the people found it funny. And secondly, everyone seemed to bond over the food.. My teacher was like smiling throughout the lesson after we gave him chocolate! He's got a sweet tooth, according to him. But of course, what I am most pleased with, is the fact that the presentation is over and according to my friend, we can go on "auto-pilot" for the rest of the term!

Went out with Han on Friday morning. It was like just 3 hours, but it's definitely better than nothing...I can't really reconcile myself to the fact that she's really gonna leave for Australia in 3 days' time...as in for 3 years and not like a holiday. Our school vacations are also different, so well, the chance of us meeting in person in the next 3 years is practically ZERO. Went for kickboxing after that, and some gym...it was arond 5.30 when I left orchard. I was so totally exhausted by then...but it was raining cats and dogs! No umbrella either, but well, it was pretty much close to stopping when I got home. The swimming pool which has finally been emptied, was refilled with rain water, especially at the deep end!

Went out with Christine and Xinwei for dinner on Saturday. They went clubbing afterwards, but my mum's not in favour of it. I figured I wouldn't blow it now...wait till I'm in Germany or something, then I'll go...better not to get her pissed.

Went to Thomson Plaza today, after church. First time we've been there in years! We used to always go there after church cos there weren't exactly any other "worthy" malls in the vicinity. Used to go to the Yaohan there. Sherry says we always ate the coconut and red colour agar agar from Bengawan Solo...just like we always at Swensens Ice Cream and got balloons when we went to the airport. Memories...

Sherry, for some bizarre reason, was finally inspired to pack her stuff...it took the whole afternoon, during which Shermaine and I watched the 5566 concert DVD again. We both like the part where Ren Fu and Xie Zhi dress up as the China Dolls, though Xie Zhi makes a really ugly girl. I kinda like the Jay Chou thing by Meng Zhe and Shao Wei...and their Korean thing was cool too. Sherry thinks I'm some 5566 freak, and that I'm suddenly facing puberty again, liking boybands and becoming such a TV addict. But well, in Sec Sch and JC, I never watched much tv...practically none in JC even, cos I was a CCA addict. I had like around 5 CCAs in Sec Sch. Now I finally get the chance to relax and be a normal teenager...uh, just one year before I hit the big 20. Well..not too late yet!