So lonely, cannot tahan anymore. So much for the joy of being independent. I wonder if my psychological state can hold up for any longer before I go insane or indulge in more self-destructive pastimes.

Don't worry, I'm not that far gone yet. Just tormented by having to study for a subject I never really wanted to learn. Or maybe just the idea of studying. Been sleeping a lot...like always very tired. Probably winter getting to me. All the snow from the previous week has melted away. Think I'll probably go out on Monday to get some fresh air, before I die of deprivation.

Oh yeah, I watched Amélie last night. I can't for the life of me understand why so many people like that show??!! Okay, maybe it's funny, but only if you are into the absurd.

Sigh

oops, so busy complaining...forgot to add some stuff.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Hi Steph, of course I remember you. Hmm, Taiwan. I wanna go there, but I think that'll have to wait.

Guojun, I thought that Zeichen der Zeit was some new band...haha. Turns out I was wrong. I can't believe one b****y single costs €5,49! Oh well. I spent a lot of money on my own stuff anyhow. I got your letter and I'll write a reply tmr, for lack of things to do. I'll write on my gorgeous new Diddl paper (yes, I bought MORE!), so you'd better keep that letter forever or longer. Sigh. I think Diddl is sooo cute!

Sigh...this must be the worst Christmas eve of my life. I am so so so so lonely and I can't feel anything but loneliness. I did my laundry and went to the post office to collect my parcels in the morning. Could only open one, cos I promised my sister not to open the other one till 25th. It's 4.37am on Christmas Day in Singapore, but I figure I'd rather open it tmr morning, when it's also Christmas here. Got a lot of useful and nice stuff from the parcel that I did open.

I watched XJSN VCDs the whole day. From 1 to 12. Can't believe I did...but erm, are there more than 12 VCDs? I watched 12 and I don't think it's the ending. I mean it's a weird ending. It's like just reached the climax...where's the resolution part? Sigh. I feel like I've been left hanging or something. Today was a day of total indulgence. Too lazy to cook, so ate a ton of chips and chocs. Think I will stay away from them for the rest of my life from now on, unless I am starving to death.

What an awful way to spend Christmas eve. I miss home...A LOT!!! Even watching the VCDs didn't really help, cos I ended up being convinced that love is meant for the beautiful alone. All my sense of fantasy can't save me now.

just got back from Nürnberg. Very tired. Need to bathe. Spent a lot of money. Sigh.

Yup Jiat Ling, I got your card. It's very pretty. Brings my total Christmas card count as of today, to 7.

Going to the post office tmr to collect my parcels. Yay! Glad they are open. I have to not open my presents till Christmas though. I promised. Ah well. THere are other things to do for tmr anyway, so I can probably resist. Not that long to wait anyway.

I think Ruth's friends are nice people. I wish I wasn't trying to overcompensate for my out of place-ness by talking so much and being so bossy. I hate myself for being like that sometimes.

Got a lot of toys. So cute that I couldn't resist. They were all small though and I will be aiming to give them away as presents, instead of being selfish and indulgent. I bought some clothes too...erm, hard for me to resist lah, but almost all were on sale.

I miss Singapore!

It snowed in Nürnberg. It was gorgeous! THere's not so much snow here in Dresden. Oh, the hostel is practically deserted. Hardly any cars in the carpark or lights in the windows.

Need to bathe. Till then. Ciao and Merry Christmas!