Guojun, I assure you that my fingers have never been in the vicinity of the esc key. Besides, the esc key is super tiny on my keyboard. AND, I haven't pressed esc since the days of Windows 3.1 and we all know how long ago that was! It's to do with how somehow the stupid mouse clicks more than it should, i.e. if you try to close some dialogue box in the region of the 'Sign out' or some other link thing, it will just go away!! Sometimes even inexplicably!

Anyway, yesterday's German lesson was the best ever. My regular teacher was sick and the head of department took over. She's definitely nowhere near the bore that he is. We even did a segment on advertisements at the end. Everyone there actually participated in the class, cos she encouraged it. She didn't rush along to stick to some sort of lesson plan or anything. Flexibility is so attractive. Anyway, it was really cool. I live in hope that she'll take over the last few lessons of the term too, but it's not too likely.

Stupid...lost my entry twice already!!!!! Bloody hell! I am so pissed@!!!!!

Anyway, I'm glad that the supposed host change on Wan Quan Yu Le's not real. Now I won't lose my "purpose in life". Haha!

The com's pissing me off too. Cannot access hotmail. Was fine yesterday, until my dad used it. Obviously he didn't do anything wrong deliberately, but something went wrong! Man....

Still no letters from German unis....sigh!

Anyone wanna go to some sentosa beach and just sit there with me? How about HarbourFront? Haven't been there.

Hmmm....really beginning to wonder if there's a good point to my life currently. No worries, of course I can put my life into a larger and more long term perspective...just at this particular moment.

Why? Cos Shan Wei's (and maybe Ren Fu and Mengzhe) supposedly not gonna host Wan Quan Yu Le anymore...like why? Weren't they just doing fine? I thought they were the ones who made the show popular in the first place...talk about shooting yourself in the foot. If this is true, then I'll bet plenty of people will give up watching the show...me included. I'll have totally nothing to look forward to every day anymore!! Though I suppose it would probably force me to go for more exercise classes or read more or whatever. I have no inclination to study for the German test, cos I have no idea if I'm really going to go there anymore now...why? No acceptance letter...no acceptance letter, no plane ticket, no visa, no apartment, no NOTHING!!!

So how? Also, staying at home all the time has brought to my attention some family problems that I'd been trying to forget for the past few years of my life...but there doesn't seem to be a way of denying them at the moment...even though no one overtly admits these problems exist. Sigh.

Really didn't wanna go for German class on Thursday. I suppose once I ponned, the sense of freedom was just way too alluring! But still, I dragged myself there. Talked to a classmate and realised he's a whole bunch more irritating than I thought. I refuse to talk to him again...ugh...arrogant and smart alecky...grossness man! The other guy's ok. Anyway, was gonna fall asleep towards the end, as usual. Oh yeah, saw my teacher on the bus before the lesson. Didn't realise it till I saw his paper with the Goethe logo and German words. He didn't see me though, thank God! But he is blur anyway, so that's good. Dunno what to say to him also. My friend says she thought he was cute at first...then she realised how boring and how old he actually was. Haha.

As for Friday, it was a crap day. I went to Orchard supposedly to get my visa done. Well apparently, I can't apply till I know which uni I'm going to exactly. Sigh. I'm so stressed and desperate now, that I will take the first uni that offers me Comm and Media or Public Relations. I will man...I swear! I can't wait so long anymore lor. Besides, all the unis left are not bad at all, so well, as long as they quickly send acceptance letters, I'll be happy with anything!

After that I just walked around Orchard for ages. I reckon it was a bad idea. Ended up spending a lot of money on nice but relatively useless stuff, like the 5566 t-shirt and some book. Went to collect Sherry's and my specs at Clementi after a short while at the gym. Had to go home to write the Siemens report for Frau Schraudolph, which I'd forgotten all about!! Fortunately I still have some writing skills left over from those College Annual days, so I managed to squeeze out a report in around an hour.

Went to Sentosa with my dad and Shermaine. Had lunch at Burger King and then sat the monorail. Super hot and stuffy...plus having cramps so totally did NOT help. Was in a foul mood and refused to walk anywhere. Fortunately, my dad was driving. We wanted to go to the dolphin lagoon but we'd missed the show and the tickets were just to expensive anyway. Walked to the suspension bridge that's supposedly the Southern-Most Point of Asia Continent or whatever. Shermaine didn't dare to cross though, so she just waited for us. Then we headed for home.

Today was hot too. Very tired! Hate such weather!