Funny, I couldn't access a lot of the pages associated with Blogger yesterday and this morning. Oh well..it works again? :)

Spent the whole day eating and writing my paper. Have written 7 1/2 pages in 8 1/2 hours. Not very productive eh? I'm not even halfway through yet I think..though there is a 15 page limit. I have to search for my internet sources again...but I guess I'll do that when I've finished the main body of my paper. That's just manual labour, not brain work. I guess the main problem with me is always how to get the paper to sound logical...you know...such that every single bit of the paper flows in a natural, logical order. THat always gives me headaches. I spent days thinking about how to go about it in the best way. I can't stand just slapping stuff together haphazardly..although for normal letters and blog entries I don't really care. Also, there's like a whole ton of sources...and I end up wasting a lot of time flipping here and flipping there for the correct quote. I just can't get organized enough. *groan* It doesn't help either, that that the printing is so bad on some pages and the pages are all messed up (i.e. printed on both sides but in a super weird order).

Max just called. I think that's probably the longest phone conversation I've ever had in German: 10 minutes (yes, I really don't use the phone much here). Haha.

Ok, I think I'll just write one or two more sentences for my paper and well, end for the night. I'lll continue tomorrow, although I haven't hit my target yet. Shall cut myself some slack lah, since I haven't left the building at all today. Like in self-exile like that. :(

I have been in kind of a bad state this week. PMS, ridiculous binge eating episodes and lots of being messed up in school. When I look back at it, maybe most of it isn't all that bad (except for the binge eating) after all. I am simply incapable of putting things into perspective when it's necessary, I guess.

Today, I went to look for Mr Hollingsworth to ask him about the GLC 4s, which I was supposed to be able to take. I went to look for him yesterday actually, but he decided to end his office hours just before I got to see him, i.e., I waited for more than an f-ing hour in vain! Today I went again and waited very long too. And he told me, "No...sorry, can't make an exception for you." I was steaming inside. It's like a completely different story from before the holidays. Now all my plans are messed up. Although I should be thrilled that I have more free time, I kinda feel like I am wasting my time this semester. But ok, since I have more time now, I decided to attend the lecture and tutorial for Intro to Diachronic Linguistics, which I don't actually need, but it's always good to know extra stuff, since I'm quite interested in linguistics. I also signed up for a beginner's course in Swedish. Why Swedish? Well, the only other language with free places was Chinese and I think they might have thrown me out of the beginner's course for like knowing too much...even though my Chinese does suck. But a refresher course in Chinese wouldn't be too bad really.

Well, I should try looking at it as a blessing in disguise, but at that point, I was just so pissed off. Telling me that I'm really good at English didn't exactly help me to feel better. Ended up going off to the supermarket to buy chocolate cos I needed something to give me an artificial high and make me feel happy...even if it's temporary. But I kinda regret it now. Too bad really, cos I also ate more chocs and grapes at my neighbours' place. I can't ever redeem myself man! Sigh. Whatever. Maybe once I get my life in order again, the cravings will go away.

Max has gone home for the weekend. He'll only be back on Wednesday. I suppose this means I can "happily" concentrate on my homework. Right. Haha. I suppose I should try. Have to finish writing my paper by Monday morning. I will...have to cram like siao, but I'll do it. No distractions hopefully. Only some shopping on Saturday..just for some household things.

Oh, nearly 11pm. Maybe should sleep early today and then wake up early to do homework . Wanna make sago dessert tomorrow. So have to go to the Asia shop. Actually, I just wanna use up my coconut milk that's left over from the Thai Green Curry that Max and I cooked today. Waste not, want not. Too bad he won't be here to try it.

I feel so relieved now, although I had a majorly shitty day today. For one, I am surfing the crimson tide...which inevitably makes me feel like eating a whole cow. I ate like double everything I'd usually eat. Horrible horrible feeling. I feel LIKE a cow...except I ate more than grass. Also, I burnt my pot...had to scrape like a maniac and I still couldn't get it fully clean.

Well then I went for class...but there was apparently no class. But on the up side, I talked to this girl who's already done her intermediate exam...and she convinced me that I am not TOO far off. Just have to put in a little more effort this semester and stop majorly slacking, i.e. don't like attend all lessons but ruin the whole thing by not writing my paper at the end. Which I have done...seriously. :(

Speaking of papers, I managed to finish writing one of them today. I'll hand it in tomorrow. I just hope that she'll read it. It is late. I still have one more from last sem. This one will be more of a challenge, since it is a 8-12 page paper, not just a "Lesson Plan" as the one I did is. I don't know why I bloody procrastinate. It's so much easier just to get it over and done with...have to rework my psychology somehow. So, I WILL finish my other paper by this Sunday...by hook or by crook! Ok lah, at least I have to finish the first draft anyway. And by the end of next week, it has to be HANDED IN!

I was just wondering how to print out my paper when I fiddled with the printer until it miraculously managed to print black again. I think it's cos the cheapo replacement inks that my dad buys either dries up really quickly or it doesn't contain much ink in the first place. Now I'm not so sure if the first printer was really spoilt in the first place. The stupid shop wanted to charge me 113 Euros to fix it...like HELLO...it may still be working now...should ask my dad to try it. Maybe if we don't buy a new printer, I can ask my dad if I can buy a new bed. The one here is driving me crazy. It's so NOISY! You can't even turn in your sleep without waking yourself up! Or a huge bookshelf. I have too many books.

Speaking of books...I am an idiot. I left my planner in class and I didn't realise till I got home and was planning to take it out to write some stuff in it. I ran all the way back to school!!! Like a maniac. Good thing there was no class after mine in the room, so the planner was still there on the table, but the thought that I could've lost it was unbearable. It has all the important addresses and telephone numbers I need in there. And appointments and birthdays etc. Man. I have lots of spare planners around, but the information inside is what's valuable. At least I don't have a palm-top or something. I'd feel really really awful if I lost that.

I was going crazy this evening trying to finish my paper...but while I was halfway through, I kinda needed a break...so I called Max (in case you don't already know, I don't call people for no reason...not usually anyway) and so I will hopefully get my wish of walking in the Great Garden fulfilled tomorrow. Yes, I am shameless. Well, in case it doesn't work out, I always have my homework :)

What is with my stamina? It is 10 pm and I feel like SLEEPING. My head was actually throbbing when I lay down for a while. I really need to sleep. But I haven't finished my homework. I suppose I could do it if I wake up early enough tomorrow. But...sigh. Sian lah. Whatever happened to staying up till midnight at least? I'm such a lazy bum.

The weather is absolutely GREAT though! I kinda wish we didn't have to go to school. I'd really love to take a walk outside either alone or with Max. But NOOOO...there's school to go to.

Today was the first day. Had 2 double periods of psychoanalytical stuff...my brain nearly cracked from the pressure. Then, lunch with Max, who just happened to pop by our main campus to collect his Schein. He kept insisting that the big bananas I was talking about were really cucumbers. RIGHT. I suppose most of you haven't really seen them before, but they're mainly used for deepfrying, and they ARE HUGE. Tons bigger than pisang emas and your standard Del Monte. I am really NOT talking about cucumbers! But then again, he likes to annoy me this way. Urgh. Then, 2 more double periods in the com lab. Ugh. With those Windows 98 coms that have no USB ports. But it's ok lah. Time passed quite quickly over there. I was just glad to be home though. Made briyani...too much though. Nearly puked trying to finish half of it. Should try to cook less the next time.

Gonna sleep now. Only 2 lessons tmr. I hope. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

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