Got a uni rejection letter today. Was well, surprised, to say the least. The reason for my rejection was supposedly cos I didn't have the qualifications to enter an institution of higher learning. Hello, I suppose they haven't heard of the Cambridge GCE A Levels...but well, considering that I have an offer from another uni, it probably means that this particular uni is either really parochial or really snobbish. I am not even gonna bother to ask them why they rejected me. I mean if they don't even know that GCE A Levels qualify me for university entry, I'm sure as hell not gonna trust them to give me a good solid education. Besides, it's not like I was DYING to go there. I just applied for it cos they offered a Bachelor's Degree...it means 2 years fewer spent on studying..3 years instead of 5. What the heck....

Went for kickboxing today. 2 days in a row. Went with my friend yesterday and went today cos of PT. I am not getting any better though, but the kicks are getting easier. The gym stuff is getting slightly easier too, but I won't be too optimistic and say that I'm having the time of my life doing this stuff. I do like to pretend I'm whacking people I hate when I am doing kickboxing though...makes the time pass faster!

I am beginning to dread German class. I know a whole lot less than I think I do and I just end up saying stupid stuff that's most obviously WRONG! Well, everyone's too civilised to laugh but still, I know I totally screwed up! Ugh. How am I gonna study in Germany then, if that's the case? Good thing I'm not studying German Lang and Lit...cos I'd misinterpret everything and end up the laughing stock and maybe still be none the wiser!

Phew, back from a long day out in town. Was fuming mad at something this morning, and I muttered some choice expletives as I walked down the hill, but I guess the anger subsided after I got on the cross-trainer and after a shower. I suppose they are right when they say exercise works off stress... but I'm just too lazy to keep doing it constantly.

The gathering was fun, cos well, we all haven't gathered together for a long long time...not all of us anyway. We actually spent the whole afternoon and evening just chatting away: we spent around 6 hours in Olio Dome! From 2plus to 8plus! We must have drunk litres and litres of water during that time...and all we ate, excluding Audrey, was a shared bowl of potato wedges. Oh, and everyone drank iced mocha with gelato except Audrey who drank ice coffee with gelato...okay okay, same difference!

It was one really long, really crappy conversation which included piercings, breast implants, durex, universities, relationships, intelligence, meningitis and AIDS among other things. I think we all laughed till our sides hurt. There was naturally a lot of interrogation too, but that stuff shall remain confidential.

All in all it was a pretty good day, I must say! Can't wait for our next outing on Monday! It's sadly probably the last time we'll all get to get together. Han's leaving for Australia in like 2 weeks' time and Christine too...then Rachel will start school in August..and Audrey will probably leave in early September or most likely even earlier. That leaves Ruth and me, who are trying to take the same flight if possible, but I might have to leave earlier to do a qualification test. Oh well. It is really sad that we're all going to have to go our separate ways soon...but well, C'est la vie!

Have you ever been in the situation where you're really really pissed with someone...so pissed that you want to strangle them and you wish upon them a million evil things? This feeling is so strangulating that you begin to feel hatred on the world in general..snapping at everyone, finding fault with everything..

Well, the problem is that some people just really have thick skin and they can't accept any criticism, even if it comes from well-meaning friends. Their save-face defence mechanism is so strong, that they always have to come up with bloody excuses which are such obvious lies! Why?? Why do such people victimise themselves and make it out to be some cruel world out there, in which they are the eternal sufferers?? Hello, to live in Singapore alone means that your plight can't be worse than most of the people in the world beyond. Such people are plainly narrow-minded and have no heart for others. Oh yes, and they live constantly in denial and self-delusion!! Nothing can penetrate their thick skulls.

There are friends who don't really care about you as a person, but that you are someone who can keep them company...doesn't matter who, just a physical body they can drag along when they go about their pursuits. A "friend" to such people, is someone to be manipulated...taken up when needed and dropped when unwanted. Personalities don't count anymore...just the presence of not "the" but "a" person.

So why do we still have friends like these? Maybe out of guilt...they usually don't have many people who like them, so you don't wanna hurt them. Maybe you're just too nice. Maybe they just don't get it. Maybe cos you've been "friends" for so long, that it seems odd that the "friendship" is to end. Maybe cos you realise that no one's perfect, not even yourself...as much as you wanna believe it...maybe deep deep down inside, that person's not all bad...who knows?

Still, when emotions get the better of you, it's never easy to see things objectively. Maybe I'm really biased now...I don't doubt that...but right now, I need a reprieve...